I lost some parts of me and I don’t know what it is. Or they are.

But I know routine kills it.

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I’ll be 23 in two months.

Am I too old to start believing there’s a certain kind of beauty in things that happen naturally?
So I can stop pushing so hard.
At least put a pause somewhere.

Life just isn’t a marathon.

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Jackie 
i’m just always silently freaking out i may not be a better person tomorrow

Carmen
why do you have to be better? why can’t it just be a natural progress? not forced

Jackie
does it happen naturally? dont you have to put effort into it?

Carmen
i dunno…

Upset people are usually bitchy. Insecure people are usually rude.

Whenever someone is playing favoritism with you, or against you, they usually think you care.

It’s not “things are better understood at hindsight”. It’s ignorance leads you astray. And it’s inevitable.

Nothing teaches better than experience. Therefore if you avoid mistakes, you avoid learning.

I went to bed at one.
Still awake at 10 to two.

Youtube-ing my remains of my day away.
And I’m glad my pursue of explanation of fate had diminished.

Alex was right.
Does it change my decision if I knew my fate?
No wonder he’s been one of my life long best mates.

I haven’t been taken well care of myself.
I will now.
From now on.

I’ll stop exhausting myself with endless analyzing.
I’ll stop enjoying workaholism.
I’ll go to bed early.

I’ll cease being scared and wary of moving forward.
I’ll cease looking back from every little step I take.
I’ll breath.

I’ll focus more stress less.
I’ll act more think less.
I’ll laugh.

I’ll go for the “I can’t see why not”.
I’ll fall for the cute guy next door.
I’ll make believe.

I’ll do what I said I will.
I’ll live.